I've been working on the relaunch of my blog and while I'd rather NOT post I will NOT Jess stay silent. Killed. 9. killed and we want to call this idiot mentally Ill for so long we've made excuses for racist behavior. Im Jess tired. 9, African American innocent people were murdered in cold blood because "He had to"; a 21 year old DEMON enters a church and kills because "he had to". But when an African American HAD TO sell lose cigarettes to make money for his family he was killed, when Trayvon Martin HAD TO have on a hoody because I do believe it was raining he was shot and killed when Mike Brown HAD TO walk away he was shot and killed. But this little shit gets to say he's mentally Ill. FUCK that and excuse my French it's a lot in this post [Im Jess Sayin]..
What makes this most sickening is that we want to make this about gun control, as I was listening to the radio they kept saying this is a gun control issue...word? We want to make this about Gun Control and mental Illness? Nah,this is about HATE, hate of a race that even when people of color are good enough shuck and jive and entertain you jerks you still manage to remain ignorant in things like this that should require compassion and sympathy! Let's Jess put race aside for one real quick second-- these innocent victims are someone's mother, son, sister, husband, wife, & grandmother .. Can you imagine losing your praying grandmother in church??? Jess think about that!
Having a gun was something he decided. He decided to sit there while these people had church and then decided he HAD TO.. So that also means if he didn't have a gun he could have done anything he HAD TO to save his country. Now don't get it twisted he's definitely sick, but one thing Jess needs to be clear..CRYSTAL clear..this is a hate crime and NO amended gun law would have stopped someone like this. No medicine can control HATE that's in someone's head and heart. [I'm Jess Sayin]
As a Black woman, don't tell me or anyone else to be quiet or mindful of what and how we say it. FUCK your feelings and stop asking why we are angry and look at the facts, because everyday WE HAVE to deal with different shit that some will never understand and [I'm Jess Tired] some wouldn't last a DAY in our most successful shoes. Many will never "get" this-- it's never been about the color of our skin to us, but we've had to fight our whole life to prove that we are equal and damn it we are Jess tired! Stop asking why we are angry. Stop asking us to get over something that happened years ago because you want us to forgive and forget yet you have a 21 year old shooting up sanctuaries because of a Old ass HATE mentality. He didn't come up with that on his own..he was made to believe that this was what he HAD TO do because this was learned behavior from somewhere.
So while you see an African American just know we are fucking tired and HAVE TO continue to stand up for ourselves. We are tired of being told to suck it up or what's a hate crime and what's not, because those that have the loudest opinion don't HAVE TO be black and WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND, don't discredit us with your bullshit opinion about gun control and mental illness when innocent lives were lost because a man was welcomed in a place of safety. Lastly don't tell me you understand because you don't; this system wasn't set up for us to be successful but now that we have figured it out and we don't need validation.
This is craziness he wanted to kill a praying community in their place of peace. Then we have others who Jess don't get it but coincidencely enough we are wanted so people can jail us, kill us, and accuse us of pulling the race card. [I'm Jess Sayin].. I'm Jess tired of black African Americans AND people of color being discredited for our pain. I'm Jess tired of answering questions for others that claim they don't understand; read this no person of color is the spokesperson and wants to keep explain something that should be so painfully obvious yet I've read so many articles making this about mental illness and gun control. I'm not asking for sympathy. I'm Jess asking for a change in thought, a change in a mentality.. There are Jess so many angry emotions for those that don't even TRY TO UNDERSTAND, please do not discredit our feelings or people that are different than you ..it's still happening and if we can atleast get some of you to understand this isn't based on opinion but FACTS we might be headed in a better direction.
I'm done. I'm Jess Tired.
May the families of the 9 Victims never lose faith in Our Lord and Savior. My prayers go out to you all and I ask my followers to remember that a praying community can make a difference. Let this event not discourage our faith in God. I'm grateful to know God and it is in his name that these 9 our now in his loving arms. Amen..
Matthew 5:4
-Jess Sayin
